January 03, 2012

In some naive state of mind

INSOMNIA [in-som-nee-uh] 
Definition:      inability to sleep soundly
Synonyms:     sleeplessness, wakefulness, insomnolence
Antonyms:     sleep


When you suffer from chronic insomnia, as I do, you stop to realise that you are awake. You are unaware of your lack of sleep and you slip into this unconscious state of wakefulness. It has been going on for about three years now and I've started to ignore it and it has become one of my habits. When your melatonin levels increase you feel sleepy. But my sleeping rhythm is distorted as a result of a delayed adjustment in my biological clock. It is difficult for me to sleep, once I sleep, I'm fine.
By taking melatonin tablets before bedtime, one can supplement their melatonin levels, making sleep come more easily. But my doctor is so kindly not to give me a prescription. He is afraid that I take an overdose, due to its addictiveness and my other chronic illness. But I won't! I just want to sleep. 
Yes, I know sleeping is merely a poor substitute for coffee and a lame excuse for not working but I don't even like coffee and I am bored out of my mind in those small irregular hours. 
Those hours are very lonesome as well, everyone else is asleep! In those nocturnal hours I keep myself amused by all kinds of wonderful things. People need to believe in things that aren't true, like the sandman & the toothfairy. Like unicorns, goblins and pixies. Like true love. The oddest fairytale ever!
Take the biggest cup and the finest sieve, pour the sleeping dust through it and see what is left: the smallest molecule of benevolence. Leaving the tiniest bit of kindness and compassion remain. Humans are amusing, how they managed to invent boredom in an universe that is so interesting. I'm quite amused by the nocturnal hours and it has given me enough time to solve the problem insomnia. Oh yes, I, Dr. N. Adryana, has found a cure for insomnia!

Recently, on December 18th, I was watching "A Night With The Stars", presented by Professor Brian Cox (OBE and a British particle physicist) who also presents the similar BBC program "Wonders of the Universe". During both programs, for the first 10 to 15 minutes, you are wrecking your brain if he has any plastic surgery done. His face looks so tight and shiny. He has the loveliest baby-face and yet he is 43 years old. Where are his blemishes? He must have had his facial features pulled backwards and filled his lips with collagen!


Contemplating about this is a tremendous good distraction from all your daily worries. It relaxes you and calms you down which is the perfect way to prepare yourself to go to sleep. (and if you imaginarily dress him up in the right costume he can look like an elvish person or some other mythical creature)
Once you feel relaxed and calm be captivated by his voice which will gently drift you off to never-land. His soft accent remains undecipherable. His poetic descriptions and sparkling emotions demystifies science and makes it interesting. He talks in riddles steeped in the empty immensity of earth, sky, and water, so don't you worry your little head about it. You need to go to sleep now, my dear.

And then you dream..... about professor Brian Cox! Who doesn't even look like a physicist. Instead of having wild grey hair he has dark tousled hair. And instead of wearing a wrinkled lab coat he wears casual jeans with boots. And who has made me develop a sudden and burning interest in particle physics, a subject that previously left me cold, but has me now burning with sparkly enthusiasm.

I've made an MP3 file from several episodes and put it on my iPod playlist. Believe me, I am sound asleep within 1,125 feet per second!

Quote by professor Brian Cox:
‘Even Einstein, who we all think of as an old wise man with white hair, did all his world-changing work when he was a young, good looking man who drank and misbehaved a bit. So it’s possible to do both.’


To see the full length lecture of A Night With The Stars by Pr Brian Cox, click here .


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